It’s been a hard start to 2019 and I have felt like someone moved my body in my sleep and I woke up in a glass walled room devoid of anything meaningful. It has been a little surreal and confusing as I have seemingly looked through the glass of this odd shaped space to see my loved ones, my friends and family as well as all the segments of my life broken into each of my interests all floating around me. Somehow I’m feeling pressure to choose, to choose one thing over another and I just couldn’t do it.
This year has begun without a sense of clarity. I just don’t know where my life is heading at the moment. Work is in flux and I am not sure where that is going; family, though awesome, is in change as the eldest has just changed his living arrangements on us, now being here full-time too; my volunteering though stable and sorted at the moment functions at the peril of work, and I am back at study in a way that is just enough to make me anxious about it. And then the dream list kicks in of things I would like to be doing with my time and I know 2019 just doesn’t sport enough months, weeks, days or hours.
I have also been experiencing a lot of things in my life through the first month of the year that have taken me back, in my head, to experiences of the past forcing me reevaluate how I feel about them and the perspective I have of them. It’s been confronting really and some ways good because it has brought instances of closure and also a sense of perspective too.
So, with all this going on, what do you pick as a #OneWord2019? Where do you even begin.
Well sometimes it takes the chance to step aside properly, not stuck in a glass room-like void, but in a place where you can work through, not just the different parts of your life but rather take the time to look at the interconnections between them and realise why those connections are all so important.
What makes all the thing in my life meaningful is love. Love of my friends, love of my family, love for my neighbours and love for our community. That’s what makes my life important.
My #oneword2019 is #presence
So, now where’s that one word? Well, that word came to me today at Blackwood Train Station today actually. It came in like a flood after a lunch with a girlfriend and some shopping. My one word for 2019 is #presence
My life is caught up in so many things and when you have a large or blended family there are many logistics to consider in every aspect of life. Like everything! It’s easy to get caught in the planning and lose half a day in the process. That. Yeah that. It needs to stop. The other thing that needs to happen is the dropping of technology to embrace people. This is going to be a year of consistent disconnect. No tech at the table. No tech at meetings. No tech in catch ups. That’s where I am at.
Presence to me this year looks like the choice of people and the present over things (particularly the internet) and the past or future. I don’t feel any need to clarify it any further because I know you know exactly what I mean!